It was supposed to be the big day...
The one when i realize
I don't want to run away,
I don't want to be scared away...
It was supposed to be special...
We were supposed to be happy
knowing it would be forever.
It was supposed to be...
you and me,
not behind nor ahead of each other,
but side by side...
But nothing was what it was supposed to be
It hurt,
I was left to fear myself.
It hurt,
picking myself up after a painful crash...
It hurt realizing
that I can't trust...
that I can't adjust...
that I can't let myself become content.
Not anymore.
Because I would only feed my soul fake hope for impossibility...
But maybe... that's just fine...
I don't want to need you anymore,
but i don't want to lie to myself either...
